I feel naked. I think I like it

I want to hone my craft. The more I produce content whether it be videos for my company, blog posts, podcast episodes, music or making my morning cup of coffee. I want to be constantly excellent. I want to be proud of the work that I am making, and i’m finding that sometimes I am lazy. So this is my turning point. No more being lazy.

Why does laziness have this innate ability to creep up on me? Does anyone else feel this way? It feels like this to me: I can be working and enjoying the things I’m producing one day, and the next day I have to make something new and so on and so on. Maybe the fourth or fifth day of this repetition and I start to daydream about something I could be doing that is different than my work. Not necessarily better or worse, just different. As I dive into this day dream it starts to morph my feelings. I get jealous of the me in my daydream doing something different. I start to see the me in my daydream as living the “good life” whereas I am miserable. Just like that I no longer desire to do the work I am doing, and laziness has its opportunity to pounce.

I use the word “pounce” because I see the feeling of laziness like a house cat, but because I am off my guard in a daydream I don’t fight that feeling and let it rule the day. Sucks doesn’t it?

But that is why I am here, reflecting on this reality because the awareness of my laziness is the first step to the remedy. I love writing. I don’t care if anyone reads it. It is a wonderful outlet for me to process. Yes I hope its encouraging and inspiring and all of that. And I want to be a better writer. So here is to honing my craft. Writing more. Taking feedback. Kicking laziness out of my process.

I want to make stunning videos. Sure, sometimes I don’t feel like taking the time to set up lighting, sound and finding the right “shot”, but the reality is I know how, I learned from some of the best in the media school at IU. Often I find myself rushing through the process and laziness wins . So here is to honing my craft. Taking the time to create beautiful videos.

I want to tell capturing stories. I want to ask good questions. I want to give people the platform to invite others into their creative process. I want to set the stage on the podcast with my words to paint a picture for the listener to grab onto. So here’s to honing my craft, putting extra work into the Curators Cup Podcast to set the stage for beautiful stories.

I want to write music that invokes feeling. I want to tell stories that inspire. I want to create videos that capture. I am learning that laziness won’t help me do any of these things, so here’s to honing my craft. I vow to put in the extra work, create the art, and produce whether or not anyone sees it or not.

I choose to attempt to make the world a more beautiful place. Here is a work in progress from my band “the aftertaste”. Enjoy